The unputdownable new novel from bestseller Amanda Prowse. Jessica has just had the wedding of her dreams, and now she's setting up a new home with her lawyer husband Matthew. Even better - they are expecting a child. As they paint the nursery and shop for babygros, she plans for the joy that motherhood will bring. But Jessica's experience is far from joyous. Why isn't she transformed by maternal feelings? Where is the all-consuming love she's supposed to feel for her child? No-one told her that being a mum was so lonely and terrifying. No-one told her you don't always love your baby. Perhaps it's best if Jessica keeps that dark secret to herself for now...